Saja-saja nak melepas perasaan after so long tak update this blog...well...besides my normal monthly scary experience everything is almost settled and routine. Seen so many gynaecologists and it seems that the best thing to do right now is to try to go through a procedure (small operation) that is not without risks. Tapi terpaksalah take the risk to try solve the problem kalau tak try nanti foreverlah macam ni.....phobia betul.

I guess kenalah make up my mind on the date of the procedure and hopefully everything will be smooth and selamat...InsyaAllah Amin...

Of course dalam menghadapi saat-saat kepayahan ni suami dan anak2lah pembakar semangat aku supaya bersabar dan jangan putus harapan....walaupun kadang-kadang tu aku memang tak boleh tahan lagi...maklumlah setiap bulan benda yang sama. I am forever thankful for the support of my darling hubby yang memang my pillar of strength...he is the man that I look up to pada bila-bila masa pun so cool so penyayang and so compassionate.

Aku sentiasa berdoa pada Nya semoga kasihsayang kami akan berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat kami......buat waktu ni aku akan berjumpa gynae seterusnya untuk berbincang lebih lanjut tentang kaedah procedure endometrium ablation and hopefully I have the courage to go through it ......

Tasteless Dinner

Mostly for dinner we eat out. I normally cook for lunch rice and the lauk pauk so for dinner we eat out for different tastes.

Since we go out for dinner almost every night there comes a time when you simply just don't know what and where to eat. Anyway, Lan came home tired today so he didn't want to go far for our dinner. I felt like eating mee hoon soup, but there's always a problem with it because the tastiest mee hoon soup or rather fish ball noodles is at KLCC...memang sedap gilerr...but that is wayy way to far for us.

Lan suggested one mamak restaurant at USJ not Seri Melur but another one nearby. I just followed because he was the one driving. I ordered my mee hoon soup and Lan ate tomyam, omellete and rice.

Can't imagine how frustrated I was with my mee hoon soup....it was so bland, tasteless like you just pour water into a bowl of mee hoon....tawar hebe...could not finish my dinner. Just a couple of spoon fishing out the carrots and chicken.

So there you go....actually there will always be the pros and cons of things....of course I'll try to be a little creative next time for my family's dinner but the problem is they all want different things...kue tiaw lah, nasi ayam lah, mee goreng mamak. .....hmmm..may be I should be more creative in finding a good place with tastier meals instead:))

On Thursday, Jasmine asked for my permission for a sleepover with Alia at her friend's house. She wanted to celebrate her 14th birthday with her friends....you know tweens...well, no problem with me and Lan since we know who her friends are...

Suddenly like a twinkle of bright light came the idea...since the kids will not be at home, why not Lan and I spend some quality time together alone somewhere.....hmmm. So on Friday afternoon, Lan booked a room for us at one of the nearby resort. It was like our second home already since we always checked in there for a short getaway, we like the place since it's near, and adjoins to the shopping complex.

We had fun (sort of a second honeymoon) though it was only for a night. We went shopping, ate at our favourite restaurant and just chilled together in the room. Well, the kids joined us on our second night there. Biasalah the kids tu....they just had fun with their close friends so bila they all joined us there bisinglah they all bercerita until the wee hours of the morning. Jasmine had a lot of presents from her friends and she was so excited. Her papa and I was thinking to buy her the i-pod she badly wanted but sorry dear....it is over budget lah... so we ended up with something she likes but within our budget. He..He..he..may be some other time when you do well in your exam, dear.

After checked out, we fetched my son at UM and bawa dia keluar makan at The Curve. Kind of a little tired so after lunch at Secret Recipe (plus their favourite cheese cakes) we sent him back to UM.

The short two nights break was worth it and I got my deserved break. Thanks to my wonderful Roslan...love you always dear. Lan said we could do it more often, so kids .... what do you say???

LOVE....

It's been more than a week since the passing of Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett. I just blog about Farrah previously and now she's gone. Been hooked to CNN, ENews and the net for any news on Michael Jackson. Just can't get enough to know more about the tragic life of a very special man, very talented and the one and only entertainer that never failed to entertain me.

Even went to his concert in Malaysia in 1996. God I really enjoyed the concert tremendously. That was the one and only concert that I ever attended...and it was worth every single cents spent.

Now after his passing, even Alea and Jasmine had become one of his ardent fans. How could they not be when everyday they are bombarded with MJ video clips and songs. They are awestruck when they see how he can perform the moonwalk and the dancing.

Well....talking about life and death as I have always said before we don't know when our time will come...when the time comes there will be no stopping it.

So better treasure what we have, the love we share with our beloved family and enjoy every second we have with our loved ones. All these events lately just show how short our lives could be.

To my beloved husband Roslan, I love you forever and thank you for coming into my life and sharing your beautiful heart and soul with me. To my wonderful children, I love you with all my heart. To my lovely mother and sisters....love you all so very much.

Monthly Suffering....

It was one of the supposedly normal monthly thing that happened to all ladies....but mine was terribly bad this month. A lot of blood loss means not enough haemoglobin to carry oxygen around the body. Had a terrible episode of difficulty breathing. Went to Emergency SJMC and found that the HB had dropped again.

No wonder I suffered from breathing difficulty everytime after I climb the stairs or walking a distance. So, the only solution was to get a blood transfusion.

Hated that but there was no other way to get the oxygen going. After two pints of blood transfused into my body..felt terrible. Had fever and felt cold. Lucky the fever didnt last long after taking panadol and antibiotic felt much better.

Today I am feeling as good as new. Had enough rest yesterday and woke up late today. Hmm... back to the kitchen to prepare "Gulai Lemak Pucuk Ubi" and fried chicken for the family.

I am praying next month will not be so bad. The normal monthly thing for other women is a monthly scary episodes for me!! I don't want to be a vampire craving for blood every other month because the blood is so contaminated nowadays you just cannot be sure of its' safety anymore....

Just a Thought

Farrah Fawcett was one of the most beautiful ladies in the world in the late seventies and early eighties. I used to admire her when I was a little girl as she was one of the Charlie's Angels from the "Charlie's Angel"series. Then she had a golden beautiful trend setting hairstyle. Now I read that she's suffering from cancer. From what I read too, she is now bedridden and very ill. Her partner Ryan O' Neill is by her side and has never stopped loving her. He said in an interview that her love for her became stronger and stronger each day.

Illness is something that nobody ever wished upon themselves. Somehow or rather illness make us realise that life is not forever. Everybody will eventually die, with or without illness. Life is so short. After being diagnosed with chronic illness, one should always think positive and be surrounded with lots of love from his/her loved ones. Don't think too much about the illness but continue to enjoy life to the fullest. Take medications diligently and pray a lot. When in pain or feeling down, lean on your loved ones for support mentally. Always remember that God is always there for us, spiritually. Be strong and don't feel sorry for yourself. Never listen to negativity. Yes, there are people who look down on people who are ill because they thought they will never be ill since they take care of themselves. So pathetic !!

As a Muslim I strongly believe that life and death, sickness and whatever bestowed upon us is all in God's hand. Life is not always a bed of roses....I wish Farrah Fawcett well and I'm amazed at her strength and positive attitude !

Just Lovely...

After doing my routine household chores....I sat down and started thinking about what to cook. Hmm....yesterday was no cooking day...we had take away since I was out from morning to late afternoon. Well, at last I decided to cook chicken soup for the hungry tummies and black promfret asam pedas! Simple and easy.

My sweetie pie came home from school and with her sad face said that her Penulisan exam result didn't turn out as well as she would like because she chose the most difficult topic. sigh! At least now she knows that never try to tackle a topic that you are not familiar with next time. It's okay sweetie pie it's part and parcel of life...you will get over that.

Last Sunday was Mother's Day. What can I say....my loved ones made it special as usual. Felt so appreciated. The wishes, the hugs, the love is more than enough though the presents didn't do any harm either....they were...wonderful and thoughtful. Thank you darlings!!